I'm deciding on either a nape surface piercing, or a cheap lock picking kit. I am unsure which I want more.

So went on a date with a girl, she wanted to do some drugs I haven't done before. not like HEROINE but just weird lame ones. I donno about her.

On the women front, I hate everyone. It is very upsetting usually. The only two girls I have ever loved make me want to kill myself. That is a lie, but neither make me happy. They have both roughly done the same things actually, it is kind of funny.

they both know how fucked everything is. I know the best solution is to move on, say to hell with both of them, but that is hard you know? I don't think I can ever stop hating Jordan, but that i what I said about Lindsay in the day. But how am I supposed to watch that dumbass fuck up her life for the 100th time. Jesus you think after Michael being the biggest bastard on the planet he could at least keep her on track for more than 20 minutes. Stupid stupid girl.

Lindsay wont let this happen. It has been eight years, I'll be damned if I have to wait another eight. I haven't told her this, but she'll prolly read this, but I feel liek the back up plan.

why the fuck can these girls say they love me and then do the things they do? One has to have the direct now, one wants the future, and both want the end?

I'm not an ending to everything. I wont be here after you have all your shits and giggles.

Hopefully I'll have someone who is willing to do everything with me. I'm not just a beginning, and I'm for fuck sure not just the ending.

some girl will realize this and actually love me back.

Both of these girls will be mad at me, but although all of us can be more mad, it can't get much worse. WE WILL SEE