Why can't I get happy, so annoying. I finally get someone to talk to, and she bails. I don't even care except now I have no one to text all day. I just need someone to communicate with constantly. I was at a super low point, then Carly came back around. I knew that it wasn't anything real at all, just killing time, but it felt really good. I was way less depressed (note not happy, less depresssed*). So she decided to do whatever, but I'm not gonna talk to her I guess.

Then while I'm sitting here, Jordan is just chilling and getting cuter and trying to get with Michael. He is so dumb for not jumping at the chance.

Anywayyyyy fuck them both. I am SO bitter. Which doesn't help much. I think it is one of those spirals that head downward; I for real don't know how to make it better.

On a good note though, I got paaaiiiddd. So awesome. PLUS I get a paycheck from Zumiez on Friday! Double pay day woop! I can't get any tattoos though. I had to borrow money from my rents, which I hate doing, and it wouldn't be right to spend my money on something they disapprove of. I think I'm going to start paying them back instead. If I have this much spare money going on, I can give it to them. I just need to hold on to enough to cushion me just in case something happens.

Ok. It is 3:25 and I am at work. So I am gonna go work.