Believe me, I UNDERSTAND. I've been dying to listen to it alll dayyyyy. SO I wrote a long one, but S.D. did it's thing and fucked it up. So you don't get to know what's going on. I'm gonna make my dary public again. Still growin' up. Still fuckin' up. Still lost and desperate for answers. I went to Jordi's G-rents house. Fuck them. Fuck today. I don't feel good. I'm in a bad mood. I think I'm going to stay home sick. If this was any other girl, I would have dumped her ass for sure, that's how much bullshit I put up with, even stuff she doesn't know about. Like when she leaves the room. She's lucky she really makes me happy. The polo tourny was fine, 2/5. I made two goals. One was hot. One was, DAMN. Apparently Milk works on eyes. Don't judge it 'till you try it. I'm gonna save up $150.00 for an actual Swatch. I think that's what they're called. The "X" watch? I wannttt ittt. Onto Lindsay. Yes she is a subject still. I'm not ready for her. I'm still bitter, and can't honestly be happy with her. She just infuriates me. I'm not ready to be nice yet. Done with that, so onto pleasant things. I'm going to go get a library card tomorrow. Between two games at the tourny, we all went to Barnes and Noble, and just read. I read like 1/3 of A Clockwork Orange, and I loved it, so I'm gonna check it out at the library. Which I hope I can do often. I'm still proud to be. I still wear this X on my hand and you know I'm proud to be. XXX