THAT WAS A CURVEBALL! Oh my I don't know what to think. Like Oh My Goodness. I'm so shocked and caught off guard that I'm confused. Wow. So just a little catch up. Lindsay gave DeAndra a gift to give to me. The present was just shocking, a pretty sick little belt buckle that had "Quirk" engraved on it. It was in a FireFighter theme. The belt buckle that is hahaha not the writing. That was cool, it makes me wish I had a belt to wear it with. It's soooo off the hook cool it crazy. It leans me towards FFing again. Then theres the card. It was so brutal I loved it. It to the point and did it's work I guess. It just got me thinking. What the heck have I been doing? I pushed someone incredible out of my life. Gosh darn I miss her(Lindsay) too. I'm still a little mad and bitter, but that's how it's gonna be, and I can't be nice if things keep going back to me and Jordi. Just accept that. Me and her are here. I still miss you, but I don't know how things can change. Wow. This changed from a little story into a letter. Wow. So truce I guess. Though I don't think much will change. Onto today. I got a watch video game in a cereal box. Pretty ok. Got a B on my econ quiz. Sweet. I need to step it up on math, terrible on homework but I destroy tests. I need to go to college now. A new scene I guess. I'm kind of happy that I don't have to deal with the letter thing. I know I'm in, as long as i don't screw up. Which basically revolves around Econ and Span 2. Both useless and both lame. I called Noahs again. The guy says he's gonna have interviews starting Monday, and if he doesn't call me I should call him. I still wanna work there pretty bad. I wanna go to Russia. So bad. I also want to learn Russian fluently. That's what I want to do before I get old. Maybe I can take Russian at the HSU. So I've actually started kind of sort of writing a book. It's nothing I'll ever let see the light of day, just something I'm working out in my head. Hopefully I'll start working on more characters soon. I have a general plot, no ending, and only a few chars. It's a skeleton as of right now. I'm really excited though. I'm just writing in a journal, well not exactly "writing" because I haven't actually started writing. Just developing. I hope I like it. I think I have a title too. I believe that Michael got me sick. He is never fully healthy, and I think he passed it off to me. I'm not sick enough to stay home, but just enough to make me mad. Lame. Ultimate Frisbee rocks. It's so much fun. I love playing it. Except my team(skins) are like 5 or 6 of the best people, against the rest of the teams. Today, they finally realized they out number us. We lost bad. First time ever. It's almost 4 months for me and Jordi. I'm excitedddd. I rully rully like her/you. Like lots. ooooh. Cold War is onnnn. Fuck the game, fuck the game, fuck you, all the same. Such language, but it's awesome. Get the word out, it's about to go down. This time I trust no one. Just fantastic. I still haven't started my homework. It's 8:35 PM. 3 Chapters for Adult Ed due tomorrow. I'm so down with my wrist game. Just incredible. I'm still stuck in my career choice. a) English Teacher b) History Teacher c) Firefighter I love English, I could definitelly see it as spmething I would like to be surrounded by, plus I would love to teach, it's going to be so fulfilling. History, I love it so much, but I stink at it. I love everything about it, the past, the future, its just an incredible concept, plus the teaching deal. Fire Fighter. Totally fulfilling, I get to be a hero everyday. Totally dangerous. I'll be in shape for a long time(shallow?). It sounds great, but moving around to find work, doesn't sound so hot, but I'm still drawn to it. I have a few years to figure it out though. So I guess I have some time. I have to start my homework soon. Oh no. I said I'd start at 9. It's 8:41. Long live the fighters. XXX