Man I'm sore. Things are getting wierd. I don't know what I want anymore, I don't remember what it feels like. I'm starting to get more opinions on things, such as feminism and such, which I'm doing a research paper on, which is actually on men being left behind in the movement for "equality", although I believe in many ways men are being surpassed. I'm not going to say more until I finalize my arguments and read more about feminism in general. I'm definitelly sick of Amber's shit she's so immature. I thought she could be cool, but she's not, and I don't like hanging out with her anymore. Harshness. I'm really into being Edge now, I love talking about it with people and making them uncomfortable. They start to act all wierd and junk. FUNNY. But Natasha said "I don't respect you unless you used to drink or due drugs, if you did thne stopped, Id repect you." Well I don't give a flyin' fuck if you respect me, one, and two just because I'm smart enough to stay away from substances like that so I can live my life and remember it all, and because your immature and who's excuse is "It's fun", I don't know how to finish that sentence. Basically your a wasting your life, and you only have so much time. Getting drunk or faded, in my opinion, is a weakness. Just because you can't dealw ith something in your life, find something to do about it, get a hobby, go to therapy, make a little house out of popsickle sticks, just don't waste your life. It drives me crazy the excuses my friends have. And I totally fell through the other day when I passed my friend his drink. I should have thrown that shit on the ground and told him to grow up. This weekend, I have time to han gout with my friends. I'm so happy, I could slap a ho. Friday and Saturday night are mine. First thing I'm gonna do, call Aaron. And Sohail. And Robert. And we're gonna chill Friday night, I'm gonna make you bastards. We'll find some show in some place with some band and go. Then Saturday 'm gonna try to han gout with just Robert. I miss him. XXX