i am talking to jake right now and yeah! he says that he isnt mad at me and stuff ya know. but i still feel like he is lying about it all! i dont know! i am really like lost in everything! i mean he said he isnt lying and WHY shouldnt i believe him? there is nothing right now that makes me doubt him at all...he is like really cool ya know. i thought knowing would make me happy but like i still feel really sad, but it is just everything that i am thinking about! i really want everything to work out!