i had an interesting thanks giving. on a positive note i made banana pudding and it was so good and like yeah. then the rest of the day was fucked. i mean i got a memory card for my MP3 Plyr for christmas and my dad opened it and gave it to my brother and like he put in a camera and formatted it. and my dad was all fuck that shit i am the one paying for it and i can do whatever i want with it and i choose to give it too him and i was like then u are buying me another one and like he started yellin at me and was all get the fuck outta my living room blah blah blah i dont wanna fuckin see you...if you dont get out right now i will drag you out by your hair and i was like oh and i really care i mean it is you..i hate you i wish i had a father who cared and like so i just went and my room and put my cd plyr really loud! i got online to talk to anyone about it but no body was online. i mean he is such an ass like i was crying forever and he dont fuckin care...like he still hasnt apologized for it and fuck that i am not apologizing! he like dont like me...he always is like your sister this and shit and i am like omg he dont fuckin acknowledge my existance. and like he never helps me with school and shit and then yells at me for not doing good on something. it is stupid i mean whenever he gets mad at me for grades i am like fuckin aye i can always be like you and drop out and shit and he is just like whatever and blah blah blah! i am getting to the point where i cannot stand to even be in the same room/house as him! like i am really fuckin stressed right now and like i am feeling really hated and like alone!