by brokenwords
Listening to: cut up angles
Feeling: weird
As my heart lies in broken pieces upon the ground,
you don’t even know the pieces exist.
As tears fall like liquid diamonds upon my cheeks.
You don’t even know the pain I’m going through.
You don’t even know about
the broken pieces of my heart that still love you
and that always will.
I want to tell you what I am feeling,
yet i dont know where to begin.
Overwhelming fear,
strangling the words i would say.
I wish i could explain
what i see in your eyes
how the sound of your voice
gives me butterflies
how a glimpse of your smile
makes my heart skip a beat
and mostly how when i am with you
i feel so complete.
You take my breath away with your smile,
you break my heart with your silence.
its killing me to believe
i'm meaningless to the one
that means the most to me
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I am not ready, no not yet,
i cant turn away from your smile,
pretending to be okay,
this action longed regret.
i cant smile and say "i'm fine"
i cant contain the tears,
i cant sit and watch you walk away,
for this is what i fear.
i am not ready for this departure,
for i know its a lot more,
for one day is hated,
i am hated more.
time is my enemy,
in which i am too weak to race.
time is not going to do anything,
except help to erase me from you.
space is now hell,
in which i cannot fill.
space tearing me from you,
in which i cant do.
i am not ready for this to end,
everything could've been perfect...
everything could've worked its way through,
i could of been happy, by staying with you.
i cant say this horrid good-bye,
because its just not right.
i cant let you see my cry,
but this kind of end requires me to.
i cant bring myself to do this,
especially with a smile,
i cant fake this one,
even if i tried.
i am not ready for a sudden end,
too weak to hold on after this,
too sad to even try.
for so much is portrayed with this "good-bye"
good-bye to it all,
everything i once loved, i once knew.
a friendship on "hold",
i cant see it holding through.
never going to be ready for a pain as great as this,
but i'll take the plunge, just for you,
so you can see the effect its having on me,
i'll turn away...i cant promise not to cry.
i'll hold on, and wait it through,
i have nothing else to do.
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