lately life is suckin alot more than normally. like every little thing is soooo annoying and i hate being around anyone! i am just so aggraveted by life and i feel as if i am just going to explode on everyone. i dont know what to do, honestly i feel so misplaced once again and i feel as if my friends are my friends. i should be used to the feeling, i should of expected it but honestly i didnt really believe it but now everyone just seems so bitchy and so cliqued to eachother and here i sit without a life in general. i cant really talk to anyone anymore, but i know sure as hell tomorrow at school they will all assume things, and judge me on what i do and dont do and i dont wanna take it! honestly what the fuck is the point because i cant prove them wrong and i shouldnt have to. it is my life but everyone else has sooo much say in it, its like they are living my life but whenever the pain comes, i am the only one hurt. i dont know why i use the word 'friend' i dont know why i get attached. everyone i befriend ends up hating me eventually but nobody cares at all! i hate life soooo much. i am like in the middle of everything. i just wish i could stay out of reality and not put up with people...just to be alone...but nooo. and i dont see a point in getting online...it isnt like i talk to people anymore...most of the time i am ignored! and if i am not ignored i find out bad information...yet like my whole life i bring myself to this pain just like now once again...i dont know why i bother with living anymore, or trying to be liked, or trying to talk to anyone because nobody honestly fuckin cares....and honestly...I DONT EITHER! so as of right now...fuck off!