"i have become everything i never wanted to be."
Parents are so ignorant..i swear. my mom needs to look around and quite my assumations about what i do, what i don't and who i am.
CASE 1:
my cousin is down from Oregon and she is always with my other cousin who i don't get along with. everytime she is down its always him shes with and has been forever. and today i was talkin to my mom and she was like "if i don't take you to the fair you can go with them" and i was like no i can't. she don't want me there and there is no room. never has been! and my mom was like "you aren't even making an effort be to around her at all" and like seriously she hasn't either. and there is no room for me around her never has been but my mom sees it as i am not trying and like always i am blamed. and when i say there is no room she is always all "what her house is only big enough for 2 fucking people" that isnt what i am saying. i mean seriously. my cousin don't care and isnt making an effort to see me. at all. but my mom is stupid and i am getting yelled at for it.
i just hate her with a passion. honestly. she has so much to say, so many judgements but she don't know me at all and i am sick and tired of people's bullshit. especially from "family" who i dont even like...i just want out of my family because its not like they care about me at all. 37 days to my birthday...they arent gonna do shit...and most likely it will be like last time where only like 4 family members wish me a happy birthday and 1 of them i reminded.
11th! wrist bands and Hoobastank! yeah! sorry about ur cousin.
Well I like Lost my background image and like totally ruined everything so I re did like my entire diary it looks retardid! but I like the scroll bar. Im rambling. and THE Bravery is like my new FAV band I Love an honest mistake!
Well off to do more Random ramblings.
See u soon!