whatever yep that is what i am feeling! joey and jake hate me no matter what they say and you know what i thought i cared but i realized i dont care about shit! life has lost its purpose and my smile and lost its cover! cant the whole world see how fucked up i am now? SEE! what the fuck is the purpose in writing this when my friend dont even read this? why cant i disappear or why cant people fuckin act like they care? is that too hard to do...i guess so! where are my friends when i need them? not here! fuckin lovely? this is pathetic and i am fuckin fed up so fuck this shit! fuck everything!