would she hear me, if i called her name?
would she hold me, if she knew my shame?
*SMiLES*
I am happy. Everything is going good for now.
I am *head* over *heels* for this kid.
I really do think he is something special.
I was supposed to hang out with him today but he had to go to his aunts....major let down.
I really wanted to hang out with him.
I mean...one of my new friends and I are like on edge, I guess, but oh well. I am not going to let it bother me cause I am truly happy.
Not to mention one of my like best friends and I are like not friends anyone...it sucks. but I have put too much time, effort, emotion, tears, etc. into that and I realize and know its not where I want to be.
you're tears dont fall, they crash around me
.:EDIT:.
here is a poem i wrote
i never pictured the day in which i now live,
i never could of imagined you not here as my friend,
i never could of saw a smile on my face with you so distant.
it was my worst fear, to live this life without you here.
i pictured a shattered and torn soul,
because afterall you were all that kept me whole.
i pictured a lost and depressed girl,
because afterall you were all that kept me happy.
you were once my everything, my happiness, my love, my life,
you helped me through every depression, pained night and strife.
a friendship which was promised to hold through the years....
now nowhere to be found, as i hold in the tears i fear.
i guess i'll live through, considering i've been passing without you,
i'll have to manage no matter what because i am a nothing to you.
somehow i have kept strong and some reason i have moved on...
i've dropped the knife even though it felt right,
i've fallen for a guy, who i am ready to be my everything in life.
after the endless promises, and the heart filled conversations,
here we sit...struggling to have a conversation, a feeling i've never felt.
the three hour long talks about nothing at all...faded quickly away,
now replaced with the delayed responses and the repeated question all night.
the friendship that made up my world has left as i grew weaker,
dissolved as i cried too many nights.
P.S. SO GLAD TO HEAR YOU'RE HAPPY!!!