How can you ask for me stay when all you do is go?
Right now I am so ready to break down and cry and I just cant help but want to give up. I mean seriously, I overcame the pain, I was truly happy and I mean...TRULY, SINCERELY, HONESTLY happy...and within moments it was taken away. Once again I do not understand how my world can fall so over!
Then to top it off, the "friend" scene is not where I belong. Everything is so hard especially when everyone is attempting to be something they are not and its annoying to be around.
zoe: she is going prep/punk and is totally blowing me off even though she had promised to always be here. i have attempted to leave prior to now and she wouldnt let me forget her...and insisted on still being friends but she's fucked up one to many times!
karina: she is so fake. and "vegetarian" and its such a lie. everything with her is a play put up and i am tired of dealing with it now.
and to top everything else off I went to the Bonnie football game and I saw someone I used to know...and he fuckin said "HI" to me as if I wanted to talk to him..as if i had something worthy of saying to him.
I am tired of being in relationships which result in ME hurting and me being the only one trying to hold on.
.:EDIT:.
Well, my feelings have finally convinced me that i am not okay with the situation with zoe. i emailed her a long email resulting in: I dont want to be her "friend" anymore. its not worth it because she dont care, shes never there and has broken every promise she made me...when she knew how much the promises meant and she knew i hate empty promises as well. so apparently she don't care and i am not going to let her hurt me more than she has already. its just over.
..::EDIT::..
well, once again. i have tried to walk away but she made me feel guilty. the ball is in my court, and now i dont know what to do or say. i am lost.
?!?ADVICE?!?
OR if you BOTH want to be fri
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talk on aim.
Chrisyt