hey what up? i am so depressed right now! like every little thing is pissing me off and making me blow up! like i just think of how fucked up i am and i am just giving up sooooo much on myself right now! and to make that even better nobody is here....like yeah ppl are in my house but nobody is here for me...like my "friends" yeah sure whatever honestly i feel like i dont have any! i am feeling so broken and rejected and hated and like fucked up! like nothing is going good and i am going to go off HUGE soon! like why isnt anyone here for me? i try to be there for everyone even if that means hurting others...and i am always there and yet nobody is ever here for me! like fuck this shit! when will i actually find someone to be FRIENDS with who i get the impression that likes me? like one who is there for me and not just there when they need me! no matter how badly i am doubting myself and shit nobody is ever there! life is useless what is the whole point of it? i mean it hasnt done shit for me except bring me the feelings of rejection, hatred, imperfection, incompleteness, pain, tears, useless.....almost any negative emotion!