I am bored right now so I thought I would do an update. Life has been the same...bad. but that is besides the point. I am really really dreading tomorrow. I have: pig dissections, spanish test, AVID college fair in front of the school, Makeup history quiz, and Picture day. it is going to suck majorly. I am just listening to music stressing about it all right now because i have nothing better to do. I dont really have much to say except i love the ALL TIME HEAVENLY HIGH i am in a lot of the time now. it is so flawless and dazzeling. absolutely ♥♥♥ it! it it THEE best feeling ever and i love it. but then once it ends i am really depressed, so i am putting myself on the emotional rollercoaster like always. Nothing new, i mean yeah i am stupid so i do this. EEEEKK i was getting talked to about colleges today by my neighbor and i realized how stupid I am. i mean i am soooo not able to get into a university, not even VC okay, that is really bad. I have crappy grades, not meeting a-g requirements, NOOOOO money at all for college, not good enough for scholarships, no activities or sports, no involvement in my school, which all adds up to me being a failure. but hey i guess i will fit in with my family now. IT SUCKS! i mean i wanna go to college and better myself but i cant and it sucks. i fuckin hate that fact and i dont wanna make it a reality but i honestly doubt i can turn it around. so whatever, i am gonna go before my heavenly high ends on me!