by brokenwords
you send me to the highest of all highs,
then you make me fall to my lowest low.
yet what i think is love wont let me go.
i want so bad to hate you.
i want so bad to walk away from this game.
it's gotten to a point where i am afraid of the highs.
yet i like the lows.
i fear that every high will hurt me,
yet every low i can hide within.
how foolish to think i can love my so called friend
how stupid of me to think you would care,
how dumb to think you'd be the one to save me.
when now it only seems like you cant help but NOT care.
i look through this game, i guess it was fair.
i shouldnt have fallen,
i shouldnt even care.
after all your life is full....
and like hell if i am there.
the little things in which i smile for hours
cannot even measure to the opposing side.
with the huge things you do...
the things that make me hurt,
cry, fear and want to die.
the reappearing tears as you say i have nothing to fear.
the reappearing thought to cut it away from me,
but i dont want to hurt you...which i doubt i ever could.
you've straight up said i've never hurt you before.
yet, that is what you have become best at.
this constant crying, the constant fighting.
i thought i wanted you there...
yet now i dont know because everytime you come..
you quickly leave in a hurry.
no matter the case you'll surely be first to go.
but i'll let you live a life not with me in mind.
i'll hide this broken heart from you...
i'll put a towel over the blood and pain on the floor.
i'll plaster over the hell i've done to the door...
i'll keep this all to me...
i'll be damned if i let you see.
i'll be damned if i ever tell you...you are what did this to me.
you'll bask in your glory and your sinning life...
while i lie on the floor...trying to find a reason to not die.
i'll not lie...i love you and that i cannot deny,
yet you'll never care, nor ever give me, a friend, a moment of your time.
.:EDIT:.
i guess from the shattered pieces of my heart I can still see his beauty, i still hold the same amount of ♥love♥. its something i cannot let go, its far beyond my control.
[skylinebabe]
and your new hair.
and your poem.
and your damn comment sign! BITTER! you stole my shit nigga!
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