Right Now I just feel like coming to FTHS was the biggest mistake i ever made i wish i could take it all back! i mean i feel like alot of people hate me and they could actually care less and that i am just a worthless burden in peoples lives...and you should know who they are! i wish i could fix everything but i cant! i know i fucked alot of peoples lives up and i am sorry whether you believe me or not! and frankly i am pissed right now because nothing is going right! i mean nobody at all is making this easier especially when i talk to people and feel worse because i can sense the hatred and annoyance that i cause them! you know what...i just wish i wasnt so afraid and i could just kill myself because there is not one person out there that fucking gives a fuck! i mean honestly...i dont even give a fuck! the people i thought cared, dont care...i people i love, hate me...what is there to live for? absolutley nothing! fuckin aye! i hate how i just ruin everyones life...i hate how i am alive!