dear mom and dad

I know you’re probably sitting there wondering why I’m reading this to you. And you’re probably thinking how weird it is that I can’t just tell you what it is that I have to tell you, without reading it from something. But this is and always has been the easiest way for me to share my feelings. What I’m about to tell you is something that I had to plan. It’s something that I needed to take the time to find the right words to say. Otherwise I’d probably “chicken” out again, just like I already have… several times before now. There’s something about me that I want and need to share with you, because I love you both very much and I want you to know me fully…… I’ve been questioning my sexuality for a long time now and I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m gay. I know there must be a million thoughts running through your minds right now, so you probably won’t hear anymore of what I’m about to say… but I’m going to say it anyway. I already know that me being gay changes everything. It changes every plan you ever had for me… and everything you ever pictured for my life… and for my future... and it's killing me to know that you're probably sitting there right now thinking about how all of your plans that you had for me have suddenly been thrown out the window...... From the moment I was born I know that you both had an idea of what you thought my future was going to consist of. You probably assumed I’d graduate from college, get a good job, get married, and have kids. Which is what every normal parent pictures for their child. But, maybe I can still do all those things someday… it just won’t happen exactly the way you always pictured it would. But I can’t change or hide who I am anymore… from you, or from anyone else. I’ve been struggling with all of this for a little over a year now, and I think I’m finally okay with it. And although I have my days where I wish I weren’t gay, I know that it's not something I chose for myself… but it is who I am, and I have to be proud of who I am. And up until now I’ve been so unbelievably afraid of telling the two of you, mostly because you are both the two people that I care the most about. You’re my parents… and all I’ve ever wanted is for you to be proud of me. But I know that this does change everything. And I also know that it might take awhile for you both to be okay with this. Maybe you never will be. But either way, I’m still the same person that I always have been... and I’ll always be your daughter who loves you. And no matter what happens, I know that you will always love me. And I hope that you can someday come to accept who I am.
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