I'm glad that you and Niki came up with me this weekend. Having you guys there is what made me feel okay... and I know that I won't be when it's just me, Ali and Corey. I won't be at all, and that scares me to death. It's pretty much all I've been able to think about this past week. And you're probably thinking, "well, you'll get used to it eventually." But sometimes I honestly don't know if I will. I mean, after a couple months it might get easier to not see you, Niki, or my family whenever I want... but as for me actually getting used to it... that won't happen. I know that for a fact. But I guess it's something I'm gonna have to learn to deal with, because I have to move... and I have to learn to be on my own. I just need you to know how much I'm gonna miss you Em. And I'm sorry about this weekend. I'm sorry that I was with Niki most of the time... and that I didn't spend as much time with you, or with Ali and Corey. I know that I was more focused on her... that's the way it's been for almost a month now. And I'm sorry. I haven't been there for you. I'm the reason our friendship has changed... but I want you to know that I still need you. And that you're still my best friend. You always will be. No amount of distance could ever change that! I promise! And I'm gonna try harder with you from now on. So much harder... that it's gonna be unbelieveable! You're gonna step back and say, "holy crap cow! she's amaaaazing!" =]