In the space between what’s wrong and right, You will find me waiting for you. All your fortresses go down in the night. To the dawn I’ll see you through. I've become obsessed with trying to find a girl to be with... almost to the point where it's become pathetic... and I don't know what to do about it anymore. I talk to Ali about it all the time and all she ever does is ask why I feel like I need to be with someone right now... and I never know what to say. Not because I don't know the answer, but because I don't know how to explain it. There's so many things I'd have to figure out before I'd be able to... and all I know right now is that I feel alone. I'm trying to be patient, but it's so hard. I hate seeing her with someone else. I hate knowing that I let down my guard for her, and all I got was a broken heart. The fact that she never gave me a chance is what kills me the most. I know that we could have been happy together. Things could have been so unbelieveably good that people would have been jealous of us and what we had... whether they were straight or gay! It wouldn't have even mattered! Anyone that looked at us would have seen nothing but two people who were happy and in love. But that will never happen now, and even though it doesn't seem like it, I've realized that she wasn't the one for me. I just have to figure out how to let her go. I have to stop trying to somehow make her the one, because I know that I deserve more than what she was ever willing to give me... or at least, I think I do. I'm trying really hard to be happy by myself right now... because I don't want to be one of those people who have to be in a relationship to be happy. I'm NOT one of those people!