She makes me so incredibly happy, and I can't imagine my life without her. I need her, and I love her, but I've realized that I can't have just her and be happy. I need you, God, family, and other friends. I want to feel needed by more than one person, and I haven't lately. I need to feel like I mean more to other people besides just her. I miss knowing people. I feel alone here. I mean, I'm with the one person that I'm in love with, and I'm extremely lucky, but... I miss you, and just having friends in general. I also miss my family. Sometimes it doesn't even feel like I have one anymore because I never see them. I guess maybe I'm still getting used to all of this. Or maybe I never will. I don't know.