"It’s easy to be brave when in mortal danger. It’s all instincts and reflex once you work past being frightened and frozen. It’s incredibly easy to do what’s brave and right and true when you’re seconds away from death: Too easy when you compare it to the ‘bravery’ of everyday life... Sometimes, just getting up in the morning and carrying on with life in the best way you know how is the most brave and noble thing you will accomplish. I can’t remember what that ‘best’ way is now. I feel like I’m making everything up as I go along and I’m floundering terribly. I have no plan, no idea and it unsettles me immensely. It’s impulse followed by consequence which leads me deeper into dangerous territory. I’m doing everything wrong but it feels right and nothing makes any sense to me anymore. I wish the world could live and die with logic alone. I wish I could..."