I miss waking up to Miya laying on the floor right beside my bed... feeling like I was apart of this sacred circle of friends... hearing daily sarcastic remarks from Kim... having meaningful conversations with my dad almost every night. I miss being only a couple blocks away from you... going on walks with you downtown at night... playing fetch with Miya... sitting on my back porch looking at the hospital at night. I miss seeing my mom everyday... eating dinner with my family... sleep overs with you, Ali and Lauren... you showing up at my house late at night, just to hug me. I miss your dad saying, "Ashley... we've missed you"... watching movies in your living room... being able to watch the OSU games with your mom. I miss going to church and youth group with you... driving around with you to where ever... feeling safe. I miss not having to worry about what happens if I don't work at least 20 hours a week... going on Ali's paper routes with her everyday. I miss talking to her like I used to... knowing all I have to do is drive 20 minutes out to Vienna in order to see Niki... seeing Char waddle behind Miya... not having to worry about paying for rent, groceries, and everything else. I miss Braden... talking to him... knowing that I could go to him for anything. I miss everything. It's so hard getting ready for the future when I'm so busy living in the past.