I need her

Pros 1. lower rent (under $200 as opposed to $265-$270/month) 2. lower grocery costs (split between 4 people instead of 3) 3. group outings (the four of us) 4. My happiness. 5. Ali and Niki could gang up on me (I promise I won’t mind, if you let her move in) Cons 1.) 1 bathroom, 4 people SOLUTION: We can easily make this work. Niki and I aren’t going to have to use the bathroom for anything other than pooping and showering. I promise I’ll poop when I have a lot of time and when no one else needs the bathroom for a least 10 minutes, since we all know that it takes me awhile sometimes J Her and I can also do our makeup and everything else in our room, because I have that mirror. We can also make a shower schedule or something, if you guys want. Her and I can take showers together, if we have to. You guys both take showers together too sometimes, which is faster and saves water. 2.) Corey having to live with 3 girls. SOLUTION: He can have guys over whenever. And if me or Niki are PMSing or something then we can stay in our room, if that would make him happy. 3.) Me and Niki always being up in my room, away from you guys. SOLUTION: This only happened because we wanted to spend as much alone time together as possible, since we never get to see each other. But if she moved in, we wouldn’t have to do that, because we’d get to see each other whenever we wanted. She’d have her own car, her own full time job. She’d only be bringing up a few things, like clothes, books, and movies. That’s all. She doesn’t plan on bringing a whole lot, and it’d all fit in my room. So you don’t have to worry about her taking up a bunch of free space or something. Plus, all of us aren’t always going to be home at the same time anyway. The three of us are going to have classes and work, almost everyday, and she’ll be working everyday. The only time we’re all probably going to be home at the same time is after at least 5 or 6 at night. I know that Ali was up here this whole past year by herself, and that you guys couldn’t see each other all the time. And I look up to her for being able to do that, because I’m already having an extremely hard time with it. But, if the two of you could have been together this past year… if Corey would have been able to come up here and live with you, Ali, then wouldn’t you have jumped on that opportunity? Because I have that now. I have that opportunity, and I’m asking you guys to let me take advantage of it. I love her, and I need her. It’s too hard to be up here without her, and I don’t know if I can do it. Whether I keep myself busy working and going to my classes, I don’t think I’m strong enough to go weeks without seeing her. I want her here. I want to start my life with her. And I want you guys to let me do that. We can make this work. I’ll do whatever I can to make this work. Whatever you guys want. So please, let me do this.
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i know you're not okay right now and i know you don't want to talk.. i wish so badly that i could be there with you. i know we don't talk as much and we never ever see eachother but i AM still here. always and i love you so much
you ARE my bestest best friend forever
you'll be okay and you will get through this.


i love you
I'm assuming this is what you said to them? or you will say this at some point? anyways... it was good. I'm not sure why they aren't letting her move up if the bathroom is the only (real) problem. but then again, i cannot take sides.. even though you are my best friend. but since you are, i can give you some words of encouragment.

i know that you say you aren't strong, but i will tell you over and over again if i have to that you are the strongest person i know. i look up to you because of your strength.. even dealing with this. it may seem hard... and if worse comes to worse and she can't move up there, you'll be okay. you WILL be okay. and so will she. because of your love. and how strong it is for eachother. and that's another thing i look up to you and HER for. never in a million years have i seen a love so strong or so powerful as yours. and now i feel like i'm rambling on.. im never good at advice.. so i'm trying to do my best.