Always the friend, never the Girlfriend.

Its been that way for almost my whole life, the few relationships I've had don't really count cause we were always friends...who fucked. I've always been ok with it, really it never did bother me...untill now that is.

I'm getting sick as hell of being friends, I have enough fucking friends. I hate the words "I've met this great girl and things just happened, but I still want to be your friend and we can still talk". What the fuck and I supposed to say to that, am i supposed to be ok with the fact that we were going somewhere...but you threw it all away for the first slut to throw her open legs at you.

its happened to me alot lately...I meet an AMAZING guy. everything is awesome...suddenly he meets another girl and were "Just Friends" and sometimes we have to HIDE being friends cause if she found out she would leave him. tell me, if shes restricting your life that much how are you ever going to be happy?

the worst part is I tell them I'm ok with it. I make them think it doesn't matter, that I'm not hurting cause you led me on for a month and then went off with some other girl. The reality is it hurts alot, but i'm far too proud to ever admit to any guy that he managed to make me feel like that. sometimes i just wanna ask...what does she have that I don't?

im not sure what else to say...other then I'm sick of it, and i'm not going to try anymore and i'm not putting myself outthere cause this always happens.