since he died i've just been so lost without with him i mean he was an amazing brother and yea we fought but we still loved eachother and its just i dont know what i'm supposed to think and how i'm supposed to feel. i mean yea on the outside i appear just fine but on the inside i'm shattered in a million peices and i dont know where to start picking them up. i dont know if any of this makes any sence what to ever to you guys but it makes sence to me. today the police guy is comming over to tell us what they think happened (what they got from whitness and their investigation) then me and heather wanna go out to the site and palce a cross for him and i'm supposed to go to murdoch with all his friends and talk with a grief councelor...i dont want to. then thursday i have to go get something to wear to the memorial service and then i'm going to school to get my work and see a few friends and then thursday night all his friends are commin over....then on friday theres more family comming to visit and saturday is the memorial service. were makeing collages with all the pictures we have of him and all the guys from the "honda crew" are bringing their cars and parking them along the highway......glenlawn has room for 500 people i think theres gonna be more then that so many people knew him and loved him...you wouldnt think he had that many friends but alot of them do we havent exactly made a decision as to where were gonna scatter the ashes but we say either at blue lake (where our family camps everysummer) or down portage....when you think of it down portage makes the most sence that was hit element and his car was his life....my brother went out doing what he loved driving his car that thing meant everything to himhe only loved 2 things more then that car his friends/girlfriend and his family I'll miss you scott....i'm never gonna forget you no matter what! i'll see you again one day!!! -kristina