i'm crying right now like honest to go crying. i cant help it its over dustin that pisses me off. the fucker said he would call me and he didnt he had both my number and he never phoned and that pisses me off. i know i shouldnt be crying over him again but i am and i cant help it i mean i was like sooooooooo excited that he might be callin me and i got my hopes up and he didnt call like what the fuck obviously he doesnt like me enough to wanna see me or talk to me. he doesnt want to have anything to do with me and i did this to my self again. i set my self up to get hurt by him again like fuck this. i'm just sick of it i thought he was amazing and the great guy and hes turnning out to be just like the rest and i'm sick of it. like fuck i hate this and it makes me soooo upset and i keep crying and i cant stop and i just wanna talk to him and i just wanna be with him in his arms thats it i dont care if i barely know him i still have feelings for him strong ones i thought he was different i thought he was just urgh!! i cant stand this and i wanna stop crying but i cant i like him alot and you have no idea how badly i want this to work no one does and no one know show i feel about people just dont get it!!! kristina