i had a dream last night i scared the shit outa me!! the dream ok it started out with me andswering to door to nikki and stephan who were married and had a kid and then slowly i started answering to door to more friends and my family n all these people that i know and some i dont and then it cuts to me sitting in matt brizzys lap on a couch in an amazingly beautiful house and stephan stands up taps his whine glass and says "i would like to propose a toast to kristina and matt who would have thought they would end up getting married" and then i look down at my finger and i have a HUGE ASS MOTHER FUCKER OF A DIAMOND RING set in plantinum!!!! and then nikki goes "i knew it would happen i alwys said they would end up together" and there was a blurr of me mingling with peple and then it jumps to our wedding day and i looked soo pretty and i was really thin and it was weird ne ways then after we say i do all of a sudden theres me and matt in hawiaii on a beach makeing love....not fucking but actually makeing love. it was fuckin weird and i woke up just before i was about to reach the big O. is that like totally messed up then i started thinking that maybe thats a sign for the future and one of those things is going to happen to me wehter it be a ring marraiage or sex on a beach with matt (any of the 3 wouls be fine) PART 2 have you ever wondered if best friends really exsist if their actually a real person or are they just this person a friend who we think is our best freind. i mean how do you define a best friend do they tell u the truth or what you want to hear? are they always there for you? i really would like to know what defines a best friend...sometiems its hard to figer all that stuff out. this is just mindless banter but i have been thinking (not a good thing) is there really such a thing as a best friend or are we just glorifying those we trust and would almost consider family? feel free to comment -kristina