well i dont know where to start, so i guess i'll start with friday night. i was gonna go to rum with laura and heather but dillan this cute guy i met called me asked me to a party so i said sure and went with him and i was gonna crash at his place. the party was kinda really incredably sucking accept for his friends are hott volleyball players from UofM. so we left early at like 12:30 and went back to his place...nothing happened, we were sitting there talking and we got on the topic of ex's and he told me about this one ex he had who was "fucking messed as shit" he said that before he started to date her, her brother had died from cancer and he said it was weird how she talked about him like he was alive and that she cared more about her brother then she cared about him. so then dillan is like "yea im never dateing a girl who has a dead sibling again, they are just way too fucked up" and i was like "i guess we wont be dateing then will we" and hes like "what do you mean" and i was like "my brother died last october in a car crash" and hes like "your fucking kidding me, if i would have known that i wouldnt have asked you out tonight" and i was like "i think its time i leave dillan" and hes like "have fun getting home" so i left his place at the other side of the city freaking out and crying and i was soo upset i didnt know what to do and i called like EVERY person in my phone book on my cell and no one answered. that is untill i called kenton crying and he was "where are you i'll be there in like 10 min" now remember ppl kenton lives in fucking landmark and he made it out to near red river in like 10 min..it was kinda weird. so anyways he came and got me and brought me back to his place and i was still really upset and we were sitting on the couch and he was holding me and hes like "go in the bathroom theres 4 lines in there i was saving for myself but you can have 2 and i can have 2" and then i was like "kenton NO you know im done with that shit you know i dont wanna do it again" and hes like "fine more for me" so he went in the bathroom and snorted all 4 lines..which really isnt a surprise since he is a HUGE coke addict. so then while hes in the bathroom riley shows up with a bunch of drugs that he just picked up from his supplier and i was still sitting there kinda crying and riley came up to me and started asking me whats wrong so i explained the whole night for him and hes like im soo sorry he then proceded to ask me why i date such losers (hello riley you were one of those losers) and hes like "kristina you need something to chill you out and make you happy" and i was like "just pour me a drink riley and i'll be fine" by this point kenton was outta the bathroom and tradeing riley coke for E. so riley opens up a baggie and pulls out 2 pills of E and hes like "kristina i know how much you used to love it when we were together, you cant say you dont still love it" i just sat there staring at the pills in his hand knowing how good they would make me feel and how on top of the world i would be for night. and how that little pill would take away all the hurting in my life from everything. and then i did something i thought i would never do again and i grabbed one of the pills popped it in my mouth and took a swig of beer. yea i know stupid but you know what i dont really regret it becuase friday night i felt amazing! i forgot about how i cry everynight and about all the bad things in my life..for a good six hours i was beyond happy, i was on cloud 9!! i remember it all i spent most of the night in kentons arms and after the pill wore off and crashed hard i wanted more becuase i wanted that feeling again. i asked riley for more but he said there was a price and he said i could have 10 pills if i fucked him i told him no deal and dealt with my crash by falling asleep in kentons room with him. i woke up the next morning and kenton drove me back home. Saturday night things were a little crazy kenton had my fake but friday i didnt get it from him becuase i was kinda outta it. i had lost kentons number gagin so i called matt to get it and he asked me how my friday night went and i told him just fine and hes like "riley said you fucked him for E and that you did alot of drugs" i of course flipped out telling matt that he offerd but i denyed. matt said i was a slut on friday and that im not that good of a person for doing that i then proceed to reem matt out saying that if he hadnt been fucking kayla none of this woulda happened cuz he woulda got me and i wouldnt have been givin the option of stupid things like E and coke. so i called kenton and riley picked up and i REEMED him out hardcore (heather was there she heard it all) and i flipped on riley for telling matt that then he put kenton on the phone and i asked kenton for my ID and he said it wouldnt give it to me becuase i slept with riley. kenton was soo fucking coked out friday night that he didnt remember that i spent the night with him, riley had him convinced that i fucked him for E. so as you can all imagine im fucking pissed off with things right now. and what was crazyer is friday night riley told me that he was still in love with me and he still wanted to be with me. yea i know crazy! so yea my plans to go to th empire and desire with heather and cory got fucked cuz riley is a fucking shit head!!! so yea theres more to this saturday night between my 2 phones riley called me like 40 times and sent me soooooo many txt msgs and left voice mail messages and he drove by my house like 6 times that night. he was harassing me and i got pissed about it so i told my parents about how riley is my crazy obsessive ex bf and he wont leave me alone. and my parents werent happy cuz he ended up calling and my dad answered and he told my dad he wouldnt rest till i was his or till he died and my dad said "that can be arranged". i talked to my lawyer about how i wanted to get a restraining order against riley this morning and we went ahead with it. this is how it goes: riley is in no way allowed to contact me he must remain 100ft away from my house at all times he must remain 50 ft from me at all times. and if he violates any of these things he can get thrown in jail...not that it would last long cuz his parents are rich and they would pay bail and he would be out. this kinda makes me happy, that fucking bastard is getting what he deserves. i'll never have to see him again and he'll never talk to me again. I've wondered this one thing.......WHY DO I ALWAYS END UP DATEING THE FUCKING PHSYCOS???? -KRISTINA i didnt feel like doing a whole new entry for this but: riley being the dumb fuck he is called me like 4 times last night and came to house and asked my dad if he could talk to me that a violation of the restraining order!! stupid fuckers going to jail!!!! yay im happy!:)