hmm so whats happened since last entry...well not that much, went to the used concert on friday! FUCKING AMAZING!!!! loved it!! saw many many hotties!! i love hotties!! before that tho i went shopping one day with heather and i saw dustin(yea i know) and we gave eachother that look...you know that "i miss you what happened to us" look. and then i went shopping with nikki and told her all about how the look brough back memories and then the really weird thing after not talking to him for almost a year he says hey and appologizes for us never getting together n tells me he wishes we did!! WHAT THE FUCK DUSTIN!! he has a gf....not that i really like carmen, in fact i dont like carmen at all shes just NO. he can do sooo much better. but ne who the point of this story is the more i think about it the more i realize i never got over him!! i dont like this!!!! its not cool. i mean im doing fine without him and then he waltzs back into my life and i turn to jello again! what wrong with me!!! why do i still like him. i mean hes good looking and i know hes changed...hes settled down and hes a good guy, and hes with carmen...fuck why do i do this, fall head over heels for the ones i cant get!?!? AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! i need help...no i need dustin, i'll admit after all these years he still does it for me, he still makes me nervous and he still gives me butterflies....i havent had butterflies since i met him!! no one has given me butter flies since i met him like 2 years ago!! and now all of a sudden i see hmi with her and we talk and the butterflies are back and they wont go away and i wanna be with him....i like the butterflies, cuz they mean i found a good one! I WANT TO BE WITH DUSTIN!! i like how he makes me feel........ :) Please tell me what you think of this its an uber big problem here people! -kristina