i'm sooooo fucking mad right now!!! last night me and some friends went out and we decided we wanted to go to oakbank for a party right and i called my mom to ask if i could go and spend the night at "crystals dads places" (kevs house) and shes like no i dont trust you and the she being her lovely self brings up scott! she cant fucking let it go can she.....everytime i wanna have a life and have fun with my friends she brings him up and guilt trips me into not doing things cuz she always says how she doesnt want me to end up like him and all this shit ! FUCK MOM GET IT THRU YOUR HEAD I'M NOT GONNA END UP DEAD.....I CANT CHANGE WHAT HAPPENED AND EVENTUALLY YOUR GONNA HAVE TO LET ME LIVE MY LIFE CUZ IF YOU DONT I'M GONNA LEAVE!!! felt nice to get that out finally i just cant deal with her shit anymore. she knows that when she bring him up like that i get upset and i cry and i did cry i got pissed off in front of a guy i was kinda gettin set up with (bad impression) and i just freaked and i came home last night to a bitching mother who pissed me off sooo much i called donny and spent last night at his house (i'm there now) i'm not putting up with it any more if she keeps doing this to me i swear to god i'm gonna just leave. she wont let me have a fucking life because shes worried and i understand that but fuck woman i cant even have fun with my friends she doesnt trust me at all!!! i just dont wanna deal with her bringing him up everytime like fuck she brings it up makes me feel bad then if i do go out with friends i'm all upset and shit because i'm thinking about it and i cant have any fun! i just want it all to go away doesnt anyone fucking undetrstand that! kristina