(thanks to ic0ns for my 2 new louis pics, loves em!) why is that everytime i meet a guy hes amazing and perfect and my absolutle dream guy and yet he has one fatal flaw that ruins my chance as possable happiness? take justin for example the guy i met the other sunday night, things with him were great we were talking alot and we went on an amazing date and i had so much fun. But of course like all good things in my life they have to crash and die. he called me on friday and said listen kristina we have to talk about something. well this is how it went HIM - we need to talk kristina its about us ME - good things never come after that line HIM - yea i know, i dont think we should see eachother any more ME - why i thought things were going good HIM - well you see i cant stand the fact i'm not the only man in your life ME - what the fuck are you talknig about only man im single im not seeing anyone HIM - i know your not but that doesn't mean that theres not another guy in your heart that you care about more then me ME - what are you talking about justin i'm really confused HIM - well you see i'm talking about your brother, hes taken up all this space and your heart and you love him more then you could ever love me ME - but hes my brother HIM - yea but its weird you wear his jewlery you talk about him like hes still alive, you've developed this obsession over him and its just too weird for me ME - (silence) ok HIM - listen i'll give you an altimadum...either you leave him in your heart and me not in your life OR heres the better option you push him out of your heart and you get me in your life ME - did you just ask me to completely push my brother whom i love and care about and miss more then anything in this world out of my heart? HIM - uhh yea i did and i think its a good idea ME - you know justin i thought you were too good to be true i knew you had just one flaw and its that your a insensative self centered jackass!! HIM - whatever its your loss ME - no its not my loss if you can't accept whats in my heart then you cant accept me!!! I then proceded to hang up the phone on him and cry for a good 20 min becuase i realized that its always gonna be like. guys cant accept whats happened to me, they hear "dead brother" and they book it faster then you could shake a stick at. is it too much to ask for to have a normal life with my parents where i can meet a guy who understands my life and isnt scared by what happened? obviously it is!! i've thought about lieing but then i think about scott and its like how could lie about him he was there for me for almost 17 years of my life and i can just give that up with the snap of my fingers. i just wish things were normal and i didnt have to go through all this bullshyt every time i meet a guy.... -kristina