Short update:

I broke up with Austin last Tuesday. All of my friends except for SV, TK, LK and LB hate me. Oh yeah and MM because he's TM's cousin.

I'm dating TM and I fell hard for him. I can't really fathom how to this happened. I just know I'm not making it up. It's there. Whatever it is, it's there.

My life is completely different. People are calling me selfish, stupid, a bitch, uncaring, the whole shebang. My reputation has been flushed down the toilet. I knew this would happen. And I don't care anymore. I am who I am.

I'm making myself happy. Breaking up with Austin was the best thing I've done for MYSELF in years. I have to focus on making myself happy, not others. Being with TM is making me happy. When it stops making me happy, I'll end it. 23 years into life and I'm finally strong enough to do that. I am the determining factor to my own destiny.

P.S. I'm having more sex than I have ever had in my entire fucking life. Wowza.