I'm very far away from home right now. ~10 things I want more than anything at this very moment~ 1. To be with Austin and have him hold me for the entire night... actually for the entire rest of the week. 2. To be home... in my bed sleeping dreamie dreams. 3. To not be on my period. 4. To be around my friends and get away from my parents for more than an hour. 5. To lose about 29 pounds. That'd be nice. 6. To marry Austin... as crazy as it sounds... it's what I want just so we could be together right now. 7. To have some frozen yogurt from TCBY. 8. For Port Arthur, Groves, pretty much all of Jefferson County to be hurricane free for the rest of eternity. 9. To get a toothbrush. 10. TO BE HOME!!! I know I already put that one but it's pretty much the biggest one right now... other than uber sex with Austin. Watching The Notebook right now... probably not good for my mental or my sexual health. I'm writing Austin a letter for everyday that we are away from each other and it's been... almost 7 days... I'm on letter 4. He's the love of my life. I can't wait to see him again. I called him earlier and he sounded really standoffish like he wasn't really that interested in talking to me. It's just me, I know that... but idk I'm stupid and I make things up in my head. I know he wants to be with me just as much as I need to be with him. He's it for me... all I ever needed. Well it's late and my 15 year old step niece has school in the morning. Which reminds me they might cancel my semester at college! Cuz of all the damage to Bmt or whatever... they might cancel school til next semester and we have to retake the month of school we've already taken. That fucking blows. I WANNA GO HOME. I WANNA GO HOME. I WANNA GO HOME. I WANNA GO HOME. I WANNA BE WITH AUSTIN. I WANNA GO HOME. I WANNA GO HOME. I WANNA BE WITH AUSTIN. Alright I'm sorry I'm gay. I'm done.