I wonder why Sara is like that. Well, I know why. It's the same reason I am... we both do not feel like we are good enough. I might do something today.... the important BIG something. If I overthink it, then I won't do it. And I really want to. It's not about hormones or anything anymore, it's about wanting to lose it to someone who cares about rather than someone I've just met and was directing me towards the tequila shooters. This is a good plan, right? It's like the same thing as getting high. I know I'm going to one day... it's going to happen... so why even try to stall? I'm not ready to get high but I'm definitely ready to do this. Maybe. I don't fucking know! Dazed and Confused was on tv on Sunday. I love that movie. Stoners, hippies, ganga galore.... hooray!! Plus, Slater is the hottest kid in that movie and he's the one that smoked himself into a permanent stupor. *If only he wasn't so skinny* HaHa. I really hope I can finish that paper tomorrow... really hope and wish. I just know I wouldn't be able to focus on shit today. I know I'm not gonna be able to. FUCK!