Today is going to be a hectic day. I can already tell. I was a dumbass last night and stayed online all night and didn't do any of the shit I was supposed to do. Like all my letter jacket shit and my family tree for espanol. So I had to do it at like 7:00 this morning with my mom half asleep instead. Fun Stuff. I am so not in the mood for this class today. I am not in the mood for today, today. I wish I could stay home, read, watch a movie or 3, and eat. I think my song for the day will be "Minerva" by Deftones. Today is just a Deftones day. My eyes are barely staying open. I have much to do today. Just gotta finish my story for the newspaper, some espanol, and then band practice, and then I have to go to this thing in Bmt. with Tyler for his physics class. Idk. Busy day. It's so loud in this class. Do you ever have one of those days where you just wanna shut everyone out? Wear headphones blaring pissed off, depressing as hell music? This is so one of those days. I was so horny last night. It was crazy! I called Matt a million times last night but he was probably playing games all damn night.Then Marcus calls me later that was just a bad thing. I really need to stop this thing with Marcus. Someone's gonna find out and then I'll lose Matt. I love Matt so much and I can't lose him. I'm stopping this. Right Now. Ugh. Damn Marcus. Damn him. I know it's just as much my fault as it his, but....GOD! I am so frustrated right now. Matt's birthday is next Tuesday and I'm giving him this skull thing that has really cool designs on it. I'm going to stick a little note, in the skull, about how much I love him and how special he is to me and all of that stuff. I really do love this kid. Can someone help me get outta this mess? Please?
Ryann