My computer at home has been acting up lately and it's not letting me online but I also think we haven't paid our aol bill. Oh well. My weekend was sort of boring. On Friday night, I went to Rachel's for a "party" sort of deal where Matt was there and it was sort of awkward. He wouldn't talk to me for a while but later it got okay... sorta. We got in her jacuzzi and it was sort of like sexual tension but I guess I'm used to it. It was just weird. And I realized I still wanted to be with him. If only he would tell me that he didn't love me or some shit and it would be better and I could get over him. Possibly. He's a freshman and this should not be this fucking hard. Then again, have I ever gotten over any of the guys I fall for? Nooooooooooooooooooooooooo. But anyway me, Curtis, and Marco are talking about whacking it. Great conversations. If only these boys really knew me... but they don't! sooooo...I gotta go. see you kiddies soon. Stephanie loves Jeff, Julie, and the journal people. hehe. <>