It's extremely cold in my house! Well this is my first entry and there's nothing really to say. School was monotonous as usual, no band practice, got a good bear hug from Matt, so I'm doing okay. I'm excited cuz Halloween's in like 4 days. And that means an entire night at my house with Matt! But there won't be any "business" going on...Matt's not really like that. OMG, I'm in love with that boy. Except I don't like him very much when he doesn't take his Zoloft and gets all pissy. But really, I do love him. Even though he's a freshman and I'm a junior. Age is only a number in my book. Oh Justin called again last night. A little background on Justin: he came into my life in 9th grade, fucked it up, fucked me up, turned me into the horny devil I am now, and then moved the next summer. The End. But he still finds the need to call and tell me every last detail of his life and the wonderful *Felicia*...like I'm supposed to give a fuck. Ugh, he makes me mad. I haven't told Matt about him yet which is a good and bad thing. I could tell him and he'll understand my constant paranoia of being used or I could tell him and he'll finally know how much I've done and how much I'm willing to do. It's hard being open with your bf. Well, I guess I'm out for now. Thanks for listening.