I can get online! Yay! Well, nothing has really changed since my last entry becuz I haven't talked to Matt about anything serious. Idk why I can't talk to him about how HE makes ME feel. Or how he makes me feel like a princess one day and an ugly whore the next. I had a dream about him last night. We were at Jess and Chad's wedding and he proposed...I woke up very happy. FUCK. I need to ask him to the movies this Friday so we can have some alone time...with shitloads of other people around. I'm tired of being sad. All of my friends are telling me he's bad for me. That he's like Justin. He's not like Justin or at least he wasn't like him when we got together....idk...he's turning me into someone I really don't wanna be again. On a lighter note, we're decorating for xmas right now. That's fun cuz I actually get quality time with my family. Fun, fun. Ugh. I don't even know what to talk about right now. Nothing I guess. Later guys.