I just found my former step-niece on myspace and i'm totally freaking out. I've known her since she was six and I was nine but I haven't talked to her or seen her since the hurricane like almost three years ago. She's about to graduate from high school, she has a steady boyfriend (and an entire album of them kissing) and was a cheerleader, softball player, FFA member and everything else. I'm sitting here in like utter amazement/nausea. I know I don't have that much longer in college and I'm editor and I've done a lot of things since we've last seen each other but not that many things have changed in my life. I'm still dating Austin, my best friends are still Tyler and Sara (along with Lindsey, Kelsie and Jess now) and I still live at home with my parents and my crazy fucking sister. Who btw is her ex-step mother. I know the reason why we fell out of touch and it has everything to do with her parents. Everything's ruined by crazy asshole adults. I sent her a friend request and I hope she accepts me becuz I feel really weird not knowing the kind of woman she's becoming. Is she having sex? Is she going to go to prom? What college is she going to? Does she still want to be a veterinarian? What ever happened to her being a cowgirl and doing rodeos? Why did she sell out and become a cheerleader? I'm just freaked out, I guess. I think a part of me thought that she would stay the same Dani. The same girl I would play with and write poems and songs with in the library of my old house. It's not fair that in such a short period of time, everything and everyone can change so much. I'm going to send her a graduation card. I want to be a part of her life again and I want her to know what's going on with me. Even though I have two older sisters, they never wanted me around as a kid. She was kind of my sister and I don't even know her now. I'm very sad. Back to work.