It's been a while since I've written so I'll just start wherever. I really do love my life sometimes...sometimes certain people and certain things actually make it liveable. Like yesterday I was nominated for Best All Around Girl for my class which is odd especially at my school where popularity and money and prettiness decides your fate. My friend Lucy nominated me and I thought that was really sweet. She told me I deserved it and that I was really the sweetest girl she knew and that I have a good chance. But I'm not gonna get it. I'm up against a cheerleader. Michelle Riley...the epitome of everything I am not. But oh well. The gesture was nice anyway. Elections for class favs aren't until February or later this month... who knows. Why must all of my ex boyfriends hate me? Actually only one does... all the other ones besides Tyler would be very content fucking me. I hate Matt. Not really, though. I realized last night how much I really did miss him and miss the way he treated me before things got all messed up. I miss that bastard that treated me like shit when he wasn't around me. No phone calls, no talking, no hanging hardly ever. Nothing. So I'm glad we broke up. I still love him, but maybe I'll get over him eventually. Who knows. Have a great day you guys.