I love Vanessa Carlton's new song "White Houses"... it makes me think of... the loss of virginity. I could have had a lot of sex yesterday. But I pussied out, as usual. And Lindsay also threatened not to talk to me if I fuck Cato again. Like I intensely appreciate her fucking her boyfriend in the same house as me or out in the driveway of my ex boyfriend's house. Cato wasn't my "First Mistake".... i made a lot of mistakes before him. He was just the major one. He's so obsessed with sex and pot and he kept saying that he loved me and wanted to make love to me... to the point where I almost believed him. That would have been a bad situation yesterday if I had let him fuck the shit out of me. It would have felt good.... I probably would slit my arm as a result. Ren Fest is off for this weekend... it's gonna fucking rain pandas and cockroaches... Yeah, I know. Maybe for Halloween. WATCH THE HALLOWEEN TREE, BITCHES! AND BUY VANESSA'S CD HARMONIUM!