I'm so spacey. My mom made me take some kind of medicine for my cough and I feel very... out of it. I hate taking pills. Mainly cuz I have no tolerance for pills whatsoever. Oh well. Last night was fun...me, Meagan, Tyler, y Lindsay crashed Jess' bf's friend's party. I think we pissed off Jess a little bit but no one else really cared. Tristan was there and he's the coolest. He's my baby. He's really good friends with Matt cuz they're in CAP together. All the gamers know and love each other. Loyality is a big issue with these kids. Except when it comes to Jessica cuz everyone wants a little piece of her. But hey can you really blame them? Anyways, I'm sick of being depressed. But I can't do anything about it. I know what I want to say to Matt buttttt I can't grow the balls to say it. I wanna show him what he does to me....but I don't want him to feel bad about anything. Fuckkkkk...I don't know what to do. He called me his baby yesterday...I love that. When he acknowledges that we're together. I know if I break up with him, I'll be miserable....and if I stay together with him, I'll be miserable..so what do I do? I hate love..it's too fucking confusing!! Mmmm...I'm finally alone in my house...yay! well I gotta go. Love you guys.