I'm trying to do that stream of consciousness writing exercise and hopefully it will lead me to an editorial topic. I was going to do it over solar energy but Andy convinced me to hold off on that to coincide with the shangri la article about their environmental-ness. life has taken another odd turn. chris and sara got back together (who didn't see that shit coming?) on easter and i really don't know how i feel about it. i'm glad that sara's "happy" again and that they're actually saying i love you to each other now but i'm not sure i could take it if he fucked her over again. i haven't talked to him or seen him for that matter since they've gotten back together and i think sara's doing that on purpose. she knows we pretty much all fucking hate chris. he's an asshole to all of us and he broke up with her... TWICE... it's going to take a really long time to be able to hang with him and it be cool. or possibly never. jess texted me last night and was fucking pissed "beyond words" that she took him back. we were all trying to be better friends to sara too... inviting her to go places with us, answering the phone when she calls or texts... now we just have to fit chris the asshole back into the picture? austin says i should chill out becuz they're both happy and i shouldn't be the one "causing problems". which i think is bullshit becuz i have to care when she's been dumped and is about to kill herself but i can't have a say until that happens. i don't know what to think. austin and i made a pact to never be rich assholes... we'll be rich but we won't stock our house full of stupid shit that we don't need. so when we "retire" we can live on a boat and be wonderful. i hope this works... i'm going to go work out. have a nice day.