I didn't make the cast of One Act Play. I got a alternative actor position/role thing but it's not an actual part. I never thought I was good at acting until this year so this isn't that hard of a blow or anything. I don't want to be an actress in the future... I just like pretending to be someone else for an hour and 1/2 a day. That's the biggest depression of my day and it's also raining like a motherfucker. I can't drive in the rain! It's very hard and my headlights are dim and gah... Talked to Shawn last night and told him about the hookup with Chad... he was upset. Not psychotic upset, just like "how could you?" upset. He thinks we're dating and we're not... damnit. He's 28, has no car, lives in Bmt.... and creeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepy. Older guys don't creep me out... just Shawn. Man, lots of shit has changed in like... 4 months? About 4 months. Melissa's uber grounded becuz her, Tyler, Steven, and Jerald skipped school and went to Houston on Monday. They were all counted truant and that fucking sucks. So glad that I didn't go becuz my mother would have fucking shot me. Rice... rice? Why did I just picture my mother shooting me and then rice? Today is going to be interesting... I have solo and ensemble on saturday... hope I get a 1. Lata Gangsters