Hmmm... today's the Battle of the Bands. It's gonna suck. But I'm wasting $5 on it anyway... why? I don't know. I've been pretty okay lately. Now we have to do this stupid assignment in BCIS and I'm so fucking tired of this gay fucking shit. Sorry... grrr. Anyways, yesterday was a weird day. It's been raining a lot lately and me and Tyler went to the mall yesterday and I had to watch him try on gay preppy clothes. I love Tyler to death... he's my best friend but for real the dude dresses like a little preppy fuck and that annoys me. Especially since that mall has like one store where they have clothes that I would actually wear. I found this really cute shirt with two faeries kissing but it was like $22. I know this is going to sounds so bad and shallow but sometimes I want a bf so he could buy me stuff every now and then. Like that shirt. I would have been fucking ecstatic if Tyler had bought me that shirt. But no he had to spend $70 on two shirts and a belt. I didn't spend $70 on my fucking prom dress two years ago. But then again I'm cheap. Anyway, I despise shopping and I downright loathe it with Tyler. When I got home, Cato called and instead of the usual business that occurs, we actually talked. About emotional stuff and things that bother us and the fact that we love each other to no end but we know we'll never be together. I don't want to be with Marcus but I'm seriously contemplating giving it to him. Reasons why I should: 1. I trust him. 2. He wouldn't hurt me. Emotionally or Physically. 3. He wouldn't tell the whole fucking world. 4. He says it would be making love not just fucking. Reasons why I shouldn't: 1. He's Marcus Cato. ManWhore Extraordinaire 2. We're not dating...and never will. 3. Although he loves me as a friend and maybe something more than that, he'll never love me the way I need to be loved. 4. Where are we going to do it at? 5. I'm 16 and virginity's still sort of the norm at this age. 6. What if I really do fall in love with someone someday and it's already gone? The lists really do go on and on. Oh well, I'm not going to worry about it. Bryan likes me, Justin likes me, Marcus still wants to fuck me.... when the hell did this happen to me? When did guys start liking me? Was it when I was with Matt and totally oblivious to the whole rest of the world? I'm guessing so cuz this shit is weird. Well, I really do have to do that gay assignment. Later kiddies.