I haven't been able to find a journal so I haven't written anything in like a week and it's driving me fucking crazy. I have all of these thoughts and feelings but they're steadily turning into pissed off/antsy energy. I hate Senor Ramos! I hate that he split me and Tyler up and put us in different band classes. Now you may think that stephanie loves u. well she does. its the happy pills. muaahhhha. Stephie...she so crazy. Anyway, this is a big deal cuz Tyler is my best friend in the entire world and now I don't see him at all ever during the day. It's depressing. And I also got dumped on the second day of the fucking year by a 15 year old who isn't in touch with his feelings or something and can't deal with a girl who has a few little problems. Grrr....this is annoying me. I just want someone. And I have been trying my best to ignore Matt but it's not going to work for very much longer. I'll run into him eventually. Especially now that Tyler is in his band class. I don't want to see him and have him look at me and feel sorry for me. I'm just extremely emo right now and it's not helping that I can't find any 311 to listen to ANYWHERE. Anyways, that's my thoughts y feelings at the moment. They suck and hurt really bad.