"God only allows humans to make plans so that he can mess with them later"! lol The thing I'm striving for is to go back to feeling free!! I felt so much happier being in love with someone and them not knowing! lol... I want my racing back! It was such a form of freedom to me - to know the glamour, the intensity of the competition, the commitment to your fans and your team and the love you share together - the passion.. but what I love the most about the life of a racing driver is for me, the moments when you can take a time out and view the World like you were leaning on it's shoulder! I miss this the most... and I'm longing to have it back!! "When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us".