Listening to: the used - it's hard to say
Feeling: horrible
it has been a few weeks since i have last updated.
i am so veryy sorryy.
just know that i haven't forgotten about everyone.
todayy has been treating me horriblyy.
to the point where i should never have woken up.
even though i didn't get out of bed until 600pm.
a certain mr. lust and i have been talking a lot more.
at first, we talked backstage, then through myspace, then on aim, and now, we even talk on the phone.
i've told him a lot more than i should have.
youu know, some of the things i can onlyy sayy through sitD.
in hopes to get closer.
but we're still onlyy strangers.
strangers that don't sayy a word in person.
except maybe a simple hello, and then we move on.
things are quicklyy falling backwards now.
it's been a week, and the silences are killing me alreadyy.
i need chocolate. like right now.
and i don't even like chocolate.
how's that for a contradiction??
Nah. Clear consciences are much better than being confused. You are in a state of zen!