kind of strange how i just had the sudden urge to type here. i was just listening to that song when i came across your picture. with her. &suddenlyy, i felt like throwing up. wtffff. whyy the fuck do i even bother. i know that nothing is going to happen anywayy. youu know, i kept seeing her todayy. our paths kept crossing, and each time, she acted as if i was nonexistent. she didn't even turn her head to look at me, and then i did the same thing because i didn't know what else to do. i hated everyy single moment of it. it's not like i even hate her, but now, i'm acting the part. without even meaning to. &i hate it more than youu shall ever know. &everyy single fucking time i see youu after first block, i feel so safe in your arms, &i smell your scent. &everything seems okayy. it gives me the strength to deal with her when i walk into myy second class. and then after school, i love how we walk together. but then youu meet up with her. &i watch youu both hugging, and i deal with her giving me dirtyy looks behind your back when she faces me. it's been like this everyy single fucking dayy for more than two weeks now. i reallyy don't know how much more i can take of it. everyone knows that it's all i can do. just to hide awayy all these feelings for youu. but i can't deny what we all know is true, yea.